Sayonara Tokyo

Unfortunately never quite managed to keep up the blog - and it could very well have been the best blog ever. I am out of Tokyo now, potentially never to go back there. But picture abhi baaki hai ...

premature ejaculation

yet again




Don't even remember what it was about. Surely I was a innocent virgin back then.
Update in Sep 2009

Back in Business

Survived the last 4 months with hardly any access to mail, messenger, blogs or orkut. Not like I wasn't in touch with people - but pretty remarkable achievement nonetheless.

Tokyo so far has been as uneventful as ever. A pay rise, job security, a short trip to India and a few new friends - pretty much what happened in these 4 months. Increased salary would mean budget for a new camera for sure - maybe will have more to post then.

Changing Seasons

Moving to Tokyo wasn't a difficult decision to make. The biggest hurdle, as I thought back then, was high probability of being one of the very few Indians, specially an IITian, over here. As it turns out the place is in fact flooded with Indians, specially IITians. Indeed it's comical that since the day I stepped in this country I've been avoiding these people - the very people I was scared will be non-existent and without who I couldn't possible conceive a happy time in Tokyo.

Last couple of weekends have been different, in fact nice. Been hanging out with a Chinese colleague and her Korean friend, met an English for the first time (it (he) was remarkable enough to be mentioned), was hit on (perhaps) by another cute Korean girl, and best of all tried delicious semi-vegetarian Korean and Japanese cuisine.

Sakura or the Cherry Blossom festival, which marks the transition from autumn to spring has in fact been more beautiful than I imagined - much much more than what nature had to offer.

Irony

I entered IIT with slightly sub-standard dreams. To only work on my language, communication skills, confidence, crack CAT, go to IIM-A and come out with job in UBS (or the like). I pretty much lost track of time before I knew it I was below-par at acads and everything else I aspired to achieved. Anyway, before long placements begun and it was truly depressing.

I was hopeful of at least carrying myself till the end of CapOne or UBS, but I was out before they even started interviewing people.

A stroke of luck and I landed in SocGen. Little did I know that it could be such an amazing place to work at - reputation, potential to learn et al. And when I look back at placement season now - I can't help looking at Kshitij. Thankfully he'll finally be leaving India, 6 months late and for a different country, Canada.

Recently, a school and an IIT senior or mine, Sharad Maloo, lost his life while surfing in Mexico. It was only a year back when he was everywhere in the news - how an IITian landed with a 100K USD job, about a bright future - that unfortunately isn't to be a future anymore. Destiny took him away - who could have even imagined.

If it weren't for Him I too wouldn't have been writing this blog. Should I thank Him? I really don't know - maybe I'll play safe and do thank Him. Thank you, O Lord. Please keep it that way... or maybe even better.

Barney-hood

There comes a time in every man's life when he has to move on - from one idol to another. The transition in devotion is really what makes it more exciting - unpredictable, constantly improving and in-sync with today's awesomeness. Look at blogging, pop to rock, rock to hip-hop, SP to Pop-Tates and yes, Bombay to Tokyo.

When I was a kid they used to say - don't change yourself. You are what you are. Today what I am trying to say is this - you are awesome, and you keep doing whatever keeps you awesome.

You must have surely guessed what I am getting to. Joey is out. For starters there isn't any suitable Monica or Chandler. And secondly... he's old, dumb, less funny and not suave enough.

Barney it is.

The crescendo was never ending. I kept waiting for it to die down, but it never did.

"Get used to it - honeymoon's over"

The most audible whisper I've ever heard. How can you believe it then? It could just be a fancy of my imagination. How could I ignore it too? Because if it's my imagination, does it mean I am going crazy?

"Tricky"

This time I thought.

"Give it a break. In the end it doesn't even matter"

I was thinking more now. Justifying to myself that whatever is happening is least important.

But Regret had fount its way. Like those bloody rodents, you do your best to keep them out - but they still get in.

Okay. I'll go for it.

It's been a pretty non-happening blog. I guess the rather non-happening life is to be blamed. People aren't as fun, or I am not as fun as them - it's one way or the other. The underlying point is that I am pretty bored already. I do hope that some my kind of a person comes here pretty soon - things should be more entertaining then.

Had a wonderful plan of getting drunk over the weekend. Guess that isn't happening - my mind is way too conditioned to break out of the taboo. So it's neither good nor bad. Only if I felt strongly enough about one side - I am tempted to get drunk but somehow I don't.

The weekend is here. 8 days to JSDA. It's scary, my confidence level has touched a record low. I am confident my colleagues are least impressed with me, I feel myself that I am hardly contributing on any level - not to forget the month lost due to JSDA. Cumulative effect of everything being that I hardly feel confident of taking JSDA this time round.

I am just not trying enough. Just not trying enough. It's frustrating.

Or maybe, I just want to come back. I don't belong here - not in trading, and not in Tokyo. My heart belongs elsewhere...

Oh, you sly little thing. :D

Dream's Over

Last 10 weeks were nothing short of a dream come true for me. Not the most ambitious of dreams but getting out of India in this fashion - couldn't have conjured it even in my dreams. Leaving Bombay, away from the city I love more than anything else - more than any girl, any boy or anything else. Tokyo was such a dream that I left Bombay for a while. And of course JSDA happened. The terrible JSDA series 2 exam on my birthday. Receiving a mail informing me that I have cleared the exam was as jubilating as getting through in JEE. But soon things became worse - the woman is doing her best to make life miserable for me (and I ain't taking more of that anymore) and thereafter I flunked in the Series 1.

So the honeymoon is over. I have been struck real hard by reality. Maybe I'll wake up now.